Do You Care That You Are Alive?

Do you care that you are alive? The question is a strange on. It's not asking if you want to die, but rather is living really important to you? If you were told you were to die tomorrow (by a reputable source whose predictions always came true) what would you do in your last day? Would you go on living as you always do or try do do all the things you wanted to in your life? Or do something else?

I personally would probably just go on as I always do. Maybe this is because of how I see life and death. I consider death natural, something that happens that humans, and all living organisms (even the nonliving ones [like the planet]) have no control over. Everything "dies".

The question, if you think about it hard enough, also asks how do you define to be alive? Is being alive finishing your bucket list? Hanging out with your friends? Completing your goal(s)? Or something of many number of definition that people come up with to the question: What is it to be alive?

Maybe being alive is the absents of death.

But if you define live as the absence of death than isn't death just the absence of life. "There in lies the rum..." for now one has to think what is life aside from death which breaks apart the circular definition.

The definition of life as not death doesn't account for creatures and beings without what could everyday be thought of as "life". Since a rock doesn't think, move, eat, excrete, or do a number of other things that "living creatures" do does that mean it is inherently dead? Or a tree, trees eat and excrete but as far as we know they do not move (on there own) or think. Are they then forever in a state of partially alive?

I think of life as a accumulation of all the trials one has gone through, not their resolutions. In my mind everything is alive because it is constantly going through "trials". Everything is constantly moving, changing. That in my mind is "life".

Take the rock, for example. A rock that sits on a beach and is washed over by the waves daily has a startling different experience then the rock up the beach that my only be touched by the water during a flood. Therefore in my mind each rock has a unique life. A unique set of experiences that lead to the rocks having their own unique outlook (appearance, or thought on life).

But does that rock care that it is alive? A rock constantly washed over by waves slowly turns smooth and then becomes smaller and smaller until it itself is dust and sand that experiences its own trials until it itself changes forms once again.

But does it care that it is alive? I would say no because the rock understands that even though it doesn't exist in the same form as before it is still changing and having experiences.

Human life and death, are similar. Even though once a human dies they are cut off from their previous life, they still experience the world around them. The body decays turning into particles that feed plants, which feed animals, which then rejoin with the earth. Therefore nothing technically leave us, and everything is apart of everything else. Leading me to believe that there is no death in the biblical sense but rather a continuous "immortal" life as our "being" changes physical form. Everything lives forever.

I know many of the people reading this are asking: What about your spirit, soul, etc? My only answer it that believe what you believe.

If you believe a spirit exists then where does it go after losing its human form? In the model I have written about the spirit itself changes with the body. The two are indistinguishable once a body starts to decay the spirit breaks and divides into each particle and continues on its journey. If you believe the spirit is separated from the body then maybe it goes through its own cycle of life. Either way I don't know. A soul/spirit etc. is a concept that I could write long about and still never get an answer to.

Thank you for listening to my rambling,
N.S.

On a side note: I have just created a system. A way of thinking that pulls at an others mind but is created by synthesizing the systems of others. Humans, maybe all creatures, cannot escape systems. With every word of mouth, every action, every instinct, a reaction is formed, everything synthesizes their experiences to figure out how to deal with another experience. Therefore the only way to truly not be effected by systems is to cease to exist, but since I don't think anything ever ceases to exist then everything is always part of the systems. It is not a sad conclusion, saying that we are never "free", nor is it a happy conclusion, it is neutral. Looking at it and thinking about it for a long time were how I came to this conclusion. What ever "it" may be.